Saturday, September 3, 2011

searching


The last few months have been difficult, maybe the blog is evidence of that. Having a high needs child with a saddening story, dealing with J's difficult hours and stressful job, arguing kids home for the summer and other things have all piled up. I feel like I woke up one day and realized I don't know who I am anymore! I know I am a mom and a wife (and part of other relationships too). But my interests have waned. I don't take time for myself like I should. And I certainly haven't felt genuinely happy. I almost feel like I am going through a midlife crisis, although I am not really old enough to be at the "midlife" point yet.

So I am wading through some emotional things and trying to figure out my real interests, hobbies, what excites me and what I need to say no to. I am going to try new things and do some things I have wanted to do but been too scared to try. I am going to continue working on improving areas in my life that need improving, and de-cluttering and letting go of things that need to go.

3 comments:

Kathy C. said...

One thing I love about new technology is that you can share your struggles and read about what others are going through. I didn't have this when I was going through living you-know-what with Jeff. I think it would have helped me even though it wouldn't have changed the problems. So keep on sharing and keep in touch.

Sandi said...

Oh my, I think you have just wrote a post about me. Hope the new things to try bring you refreshment. You are such a wonderful mom and person. I know we have said this before but we need to get together!

LeAnne The Haiti Lady said...

WOW, you hit my nail on the head here. I have been in a 'rut' with myself lately. Not knowing what I want to do, knowing that some days I am just grumpy and being around others is just NOT for me...I am a people person, but more and more it seems like I am despising the times I have to be with people.
Time to reevaluate!
LeAnne