Sunday, August 19, 2012

It's today!

I'm really excited for this day. It's the first day of Bellingham Roller Betties Booty Camp. Basically it is tryouts for skaters and training . I heard that many people who go have very limited experience on skates, so that makes me feel better!

Then immediately after that is the benefit concert at Boundary Bay Brewery from 8-10. I have been putting together raffle prizes and collecting donations from local businesses. We have some great ones.

Please pray for no rain and a successful event for the Spina Bifida Association.

After being up all night with a fussy foster baby, I think I will go for a run.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Things from the beach

Playing around with my camera. 
I'm still learning, and feel like I need much more practice, 
but here are some fun things I found on the beach a few weeks ago.

This is what most of our beaches are like. I would love more sand.

I have no clue what this pin is for, but it was stuck in some driftwood.

Benefit Concert this Sunday

We are so excited to be hosting a concert!
Please read this post for more information and come see us!

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


Most people don't understand attachment issues that go along with adoption. But I want to vent and hope you might imagine how this would make you feel as a mother.

You decide to adopt and work diligently for several years to make it possible. You travel to Haiti several times and meet your future son. He appears to be charming, loving and cuddly and according to his caregivers, he is. You wait and pray, hoping for him to come home to you quickly. The day finally comes and you greet him at the airport. In a matter of minutes the dream reunion is shattered as your son wants nothing to do with you, and will barely make eye contact.

Years pass and you take your son to specialists and therapists. You hope for some sort of reason for his odd behavior. He struggles in school and more people are involved with finding some diagnoses. No real explanation is found. Your son doesn't want anything to do with you unless it involves food or wanting negative attention. He acts like it's torturous to cuddle or give hugs, yet will curl up with anyone else. He is passive aggressive and only shows one genuine emotion, anger. The other ones are fake or mimicked to get by in life or gain control. He struggles socially and emotionally as well as developmentally. He pushes further away and his anger grows as he gets disciplined for his behaviors such as stealing, lying, hitting and being defiant. He annoys most everyone except those who don't know him well.

These are the things I have been struggling with since E has been home. I feel defeated. It's even more frustrating that therapists who deal with attachment and RAD are few and far between in our area. We found one but she doesn't take our medical insurance. Ugh. Thanks for listening.

sweet girl

We have loved having M. in our home for a little over a week.  Everyone has been so helpful to make her happy. She is doing great and is a bright light in our lives already. 

family reunion campout

Random pics of my family reunion at Cama Beach State Park last weekend.

 Building a model airplane...

fun times on the beach!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

I love this

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald

Friday, August 3, 2012