Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Voice of God

Elijah's passport photo

I wanted to write about something before I forget. It happened on Christmas morning.
Our family decided last minute on Christmas eve to spend the evening and overnight to Christmas day with my parents. The snow was coming down really heavy and the roads around here were terrible. The forecast was not great, but we didn't want to miss seeing my sister and parents. We decided instead of driving home late that night, to just pack everything up and plan a sleep over. Jeremiah and I ended up sleeping in the living room on an air mattress. I was having a hard time sleeping but had taken some NyQuil so it helped with my cold symptoms. I was dreaming about something having to do with Elijah, and I heard a very clear, loud voice say to me "ELIJAH WILL BE HOME SOON!". I woke up instantly and decided to pray. I wasn't able to fall back to sleep, so I stayed up and waited for everyone else to wake up.

Every day I go through doubt. I read things online; people waiting an obnoxiously long time for their children, in whatever stage of the process we are in. I hear of children's visa's being denied, of children dying or getting very sick in Haiti, I read about kids who are home and not adjusting well, and of families dissolving their adoptions. I believe that we are amidst a serious spiritual battle. We can not let the enemy win. I believe we must give this all over to God, and I certainly know all this waiting has taught me patience I have never had before. I try so hard to give this all over to God. I still doubt, worry and fret. I am sorry, it is so hard to not let my human nature (sin) take over. I pray again asking forgiveness for worrying and not having faith. I go back and forth with feelings of joy we are moving ahead, to feelings of fear and worry about what is to come. To tell you the truth, I think this is the hardest part of this whole adoption. Elijah is legally our son, and we are only waiting for a visa. Everything lies in the hands of the US Embassy. I've had adoptive parents tell me that once he is home, all of this will seem like a dream. Kinda like when you are expecting a baby, you count down impatiently for that baby to come into the world. When it finally arrives, the days of pregnancy is a blur.

Yesterday I sent out an email to the pastors of our newer church. Here is what I wrote...

Prayer request from the Smith Family.
Happy New Year! As you may know, our family has been waiting for our adopted son in Haiti for a year and a half. He is in the final stages and should be coming home very soon. We got word today that he is having an interview on Jan 14th to determine his orphan status. This is needed to receive a visa. He will then have a visa appointment and be able to come home. Please pray for this important step. Lately the US gov. has been very strict during this stage and have denied children their visas to be able to come home to their adoptive families. Elijah is 2 and 1/2 and was abandoned at a hospital in Northern Haiti when he was 8 months old. He really needs a family and is legally our son. We pray daily for him to come home soon. Thanks so much for your needed prayers and support! Feel free to pass this prayer request on to others as well.
Blessings to you,

The assistant pastor replied today with a nice email, copying it to about 20 elders and deacons. I am so happy to know we are covered in prayer. I feel encouraged.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2009 will bring a lot of changes to our family, I know it will be GREAT and BLESSED. I am going to trust that I heard God's voice on Christmas morn, Elijah will be home soon!


Momto16 said...

Elijah will be home soon Kim. I can feel it- I have seen him there with your family- even today- his "being" was felt as if he was already there! Lovely post. :)
Love ya!

Mama D.'s Dozen said...

Hi Kim,

So glad that your new church is supporting you in prayer.

We look forward to hearing soon that Elijah is on his way home.

Will be praying on the 14th.

Laurel :)